"It's not how many times you get knocked down, it's how many times you pull yourself together and get back up." - Unknown
On this journey, there are things that happen that you didn't necessarily plan. I envisioned my life a certain way when I was younger and it's definitely been different. The reality of real life with everything, the good with the bad, can be overwhelming at times. This summer, so much has happened with my family preparing to move, my grandma facing the end of her life, and my paternal grandmother suffering a serious injury in her shoulder and arm. I wish that I could say I faced the emotion and stress in a better way, but so many times I find myself pushing it away, deep down, and refusing to face how I'm really feeling.
It's not okay to do this - it isn't healthy and I need to face what I am truly feeling. It's something that I'm determined to do. I used to journal all the time – which is the main way I get my feelings out of my head and heart. That habit has been sorely lacking lately. Well, time for a change. No longer will I bottle up these feelings...I will face them head on. If that means journaling for hours or just talking more about how I am feeling than so be it.
Funny, this weekend I'm rather forced to slow down and think about my life because I am suffering from a pretty bad ear infection. The doc told me to take a lot of ibuprofen, every 8 hours, but it wore off after 5 1/2 so I'm sitting here trying not to focus on my throbbing right ear. It's kind of crazy because I went to the Urgent Care yesterday, and the doctor said I had "Swimmer's Ear", but when I went back to a different doctor last night, she said it was a pretty bad ear infection. I think the first doctor just looked at my ears for a total of 1 minute and didn't care, because my ears were already starting to ache then.
Well, I guess I am planning on taking advantage of this down time to think, reflect, renew, and refocus on what my priorities are and where I want to be in the future. Hoping that my ear feels better in the near future, because it's pretty painful right now.
