Walking it out.

My last post, entitled sifting, was definitely a prelude to something that God was about to do. In that reflection, I feel as if I was on the outside looking in. Now I'm on the inside, & it's hard to see beyond circumstances.

It's true; I'm weary. I'm heavy laden. I have some things on my heart, burdens that are weighing me down. Here comes the test- will I persevere? I have to say, with God's strength as my own, I know that I will.

This is truly a good place to be. Although it may be painful, I know that the product of persecution & trials, if we respond in the right way, is becoming more like Christ. This is what I truly desire. It has been my heart since I came to know the Lord as my Savior.

I will hold on to His promises- I know that they are true. He is faithful!

When I was praying last night, just laying my heart bare before my King and telling Him that I'm weary, & beseeching Him to be my strength, He comforted me. His peace flooded over me, and He spoke to me that I'm just going to have to walk this out.

That means several things to me: firstly, that I will need to be strong. Where does that strength come from? It can't come from me, because that would be relying on my flesh and while it may be sustainable for a week or two, will ultimately fail. My strength will come from the Lord, from staying in His word, worshiping before His throne, fasting, and prayer. Secondly, that the Lord will supply everything that I need to walk through this, no matter what my emotions. That it will be a struggle- yes, there will be a fight to win. However, I am not alone. God is on my side- He is my warrior Prince. I do not go into this battle alone. Thirdly, it means that it is in His plan to use this time as a training for me. There is something that He wants to teach me & areas that He wants to cause growth in. If I am willing to let him shape me during this time, it will be a beautiful thing in the end.

I thank you Lord, for being Sovereign. Emotions change time and time again, yet You remain the same. You are my Rock, my strong tower, my ever present help in time of need. You are my King, I declare it. Unto You I will sing praises all day long. Let me cling only to You.

-LB